From my shoot in Limburg last weekend, the weather forecast ..
🕑 Added 2021-07-08 14:07:22 +0000 UTC
From my shoot in Limburg last weekend, the weather forecast said it was going to rain all day but we decided to risk it! Had a full hour of shooting outside and as soon as we got back into the car it started pouring so we felt super lucky.
I'm sorry for my lack of activity recently, although I have been shooting pretty regularly I feel like I really have nothing to post wether it's because I just haven't got the photos back or I have and they aren't photos I feel represent me personally or aren't up to the level of skill or creativity I want to show.
Alongside that I am having issues with my skin, I suffered from acne very badly as a teenager and due to changing birth control it has come back with a vengeance and this makes being photographed for a living quite hard. No matter how much I know I'm still beautiful etc etc doesn't change the fact that is does not make for great photos and it has gotten to the point where I have had a few photographers make comments about it which really messes with my self confidence. I am doing everything I can to fix it but these things take time unfortunately. I am using this time though to think about how much of my self worth and self confidence comes from just being physically attractive and how currently my only source of income totally relies on it too and it is a little scary to see how easily I have been knocked down just by having that taken away a little bit and that is probably something I need to work on ✨
Apologies for the rant I just felt I owed a little explanation and also life update haha in more exciting news I will be going home to Ireland for all of August and have a few shoots already planned there as well as hoping to self shoot a whole lot in the beautiful countryside
